I’ve not been writing as much for a number of reasons as of late, but the biggest being nerves right now. When I’m in the middle of a lesson, surrounded by the cherubs with their questions, their attitude, their smiles and demands on my attention, I’m a teacher, plain and simple. Lost are any thoughts but those of how can I guide my students to where they need to be.
Yet, outside of my classroom, I’m a husband, a father, a son, a brother, and an uncle. Last week, I mistakenly looked at the job section in the Sunday paper. Oye, not a good idea on my part because it got me thinking about the “what if” question of my current situation. On the way home last night my oldest daughter asks, quite innocently, “how would you not having a job impact our family?” Hmmmm, so I do I answer that question?? 🙂
And how did I answer it, quite honestly, but it’s questions like that, thoughts like that which are keeping me awake at night. A co-worker and I talked yesterday after school, and she talked much of what I said above, how when she’s in the classroom, it’s not an issue, but when she starts thinking during that down time, yes, this is coming right at us, like a slow moving freight train.
So, if my posting continues to wane, I’ve not dropped off the face of the earth. No, I’m just trying to calm my nerves, preparing to do the best I can for my class each day.