How many times have we heard this question from students, parents, co-workers, our own kids. A three letter word that can hit like a ton of bricks, causing considerable anxiety and stress.
I’ve asked myself this question a lot over the last few days. I can’t and won’t go into specifics of my own job, but it’s safe to say those three little letters have been used a lot around our district lately.
As I spent hours over the weekend looking at Core documents, trying to plan how they’d fit into my classroom, I asked that question. I know there are teachers our there who simply hit the road on the weekends, not opening a book until Monday morning. Why? Why am I banging my head against a wall? Why are my co-workers in the same boat if not worse?
I wish I could come back with a light hearted story or way of thinking, but right now, I just cannot. That question weighs heavily on my soul as I work through finding math assessments. It pulled as me as I read through the literacy and social studies core documents on the way to a swim meet over the weekend, and then again on Sunday as I worked in my classroom.
16 faces come into my room, smiling, ready to learn. They are my inspiration, my hope that this back breaking work is certainly worth the sweat equity I put into it. They do matter, each and every one of them. I owe them my best, each and every day, regardless of my own opinion on decision making at the local, state, and national level.
I’ll keep asking that question, why, and each time, that student will walk through the door with the look on his face of “I’m why, now knock it off and teach!” I need those days, those attitudes, to help me remember that it’s not about me, it’s about the students.
Because I can and always will fight for those students. If not me, then who?
August 28, 2012 at 6:04 pm
I, too, have been asking myself the same question lately, though it may be for different reasons. I got into teaching to have an impact on students and focus solely on the students. TOO MANY times in the last few years have I heard adults trying to influence decision making for their own benefit, even though it may not benefit the students, or even worse, hurt them. This drives me nuts, and I ask…WHY!?
I was struggling to develop another blog post of my own, but this post has sparked my next topic.
August 30, 2012 at 10:00 am
I agree entirely, the decision making process isn’t always “what’s best for kids” that is for certain! 😦
Glad I could help spark something! I look forward to reading it!
August 30, 2012 at 1:04 pm
For sake of possibly stirring the pot, I didn’t take my new post in the direction I initially thought I would. I decided to keep it focused on myself, and the reasons why I teach, rather than pointing fingers elsewhere. Here is my latest post…http://englishbormann.blogspot.com/
Thanks for the inspiration.